I have to admit it. Getting back to full health has been a much more difficult road than I ever imagined. Telling myself and others that I'm "Nearly 100% healthy," doesn't help when I have trouble walking more than a hundred yards, or when my legs decide to buckle after standing for fifteen minutes. My optimism doesn't correct my vision when I can't read music due to a common eye problem cause by GVHD. It doesn't help that getting over a simple cold that lasts for nearly a month due to a weak immune system.
I cherish my own resolve to beat cancer. It has given me strength to fight, confidence to move on and the certainty of eventual health. Admitting that it has been a tougher road than expected is as far as I'll go in conceding to cancer. The day I concede more to this disease is the day my life will start a downward slide toward an end. That will never happen.
By the way, I'm "Nearly 100% healthy!"
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