Why do I keep writing this blog? It started as a way of keeping friends and family informed. Early on, after my diagnosis with Multiple Myeloma, I realized people were cautious about asking how things are going. They were afraid of an uncomfortable answer. My attitude at the time was to encourage people to ask or if they would rather, just catch up by reading the blog. It was a self centered endeavor. It may have even been a bit narcissistic to assume people wanted to read how "I" am doing in a fight with cancer.
One reason that I have continued to write is at the request of some very influential people in my life. They have requested that I keep writing to inform them of the continued saga of a battle with an incurable disease. Since I am well over a year beyond my intensive treatment in Seattle, it's too early to claim victory but I'll do it anyway. If for no other reason, flaunting my relative good health is a slap in the face to one of mankind's greatest enemies, cancer.
To be completely honest with myself and a few readers, writing this blog is a message to myself. It's the one place where I can vent about the disease that tried to take my life. It's also the one area where I'm not afraid to express my fondness for life and reasons to go through extraordinary measures to keep living. As an extension of this blog, I'm considering writing a longer version. I wouldn't call it a book, since that requires publishing and an interested audience. But I will label it as my own memories of this horrendous experience. If I am the only person who ever reads my experience with cancer, it would be worth writing. No doubt, everyone has life experiences that are worth remembering. My own memories bring me happiness, sadness, joy and pain. To me, that's what makes life worth living.
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